Loneliness...

Good grief, I had no idea that loneliness was such a burden to bear. I am sure there is plenty more of it in my future, and overall I am enjoying my singleness, but sometimes the loneliness can make me feel sad.

I guess I've never really felt alone like this. I've had my parents, plenty of friends, my neighbors’ and my pets. Now I left my home town, far away from my parents, pets and neighbors’. That leaves me with some of my friends(…most are my friends are not in Mumbai). Of which I am purely blessed. I have many friends of which some are very close to me. I adore them all. I need them all. But the loneliness persists.

I've got to find a way to squelch it. I don't like it. I don't even like saying "I'm lonely". It's not like I don't have plenty to do. Plenty around the house, plenty of work, great hobbies, loads of good movies and serials to watch, Gtalk to chat, nature to love. It is definitely not an empty life. But it can be a lonely life.

I have one close friend, she had spoken recently about the pervasive loneliness in her life. She is widowed, her husband died in an accident in a local train, a year after their love marriage. I don't believe I suffer from the same level of loneliness she do, and for that I am grateful, but I still hurt for her.

My loneliness is more of an emptiness. An empty flat. An empty bed. An empty heart. But worst of all, an empty soul…

-K Himaanshu Meehirs’ Shukla…